Right before waking up, I smiled. I was in a town car driving down the road with my husband. I had just been married. Me? Married? It’s hard to fathom at this present moment. But I don’t ever dream. Ever. This is the second time I have had a dream in the past three years. And I’m a firm believer dreams mean something. And above all else this would be a dream come true – to get married. I’ve decided at this point in my life I’m not going to have children but I believe I can make my husband content and happy were a baby wouldn’t need to be in the picture. I picture us meeting for the very first time, locking eyes and just knowing without a shadow of a doubt him and I are to be together. A fairy tale come true. I found my superman. My one and only. My soulmate. I absolutely do not believe in divorce so that is out of the question. So if he says, “I do” it’s till death due us part. To my future husband, “I’m patiently waiting for you. Doing everything in my power to be guided by the Lord. Following His purpose for my life and doing His will.
In the Fall of 2020 I will be going back to school to get my bachelor’s in communications. And also receive my paralegal certificate. This is another dream come true. When I graduated from high school I was so lost I had no idea what I wanted to do. But everything happens for a reason and I’m right where I’m suppose to be; at home quarantined like everyone else. I’m hoping it’s just until April 7, 2020 but nothing is definite yet. And I hope I still have this job at Beerworks NO. 1 Fenway/Boston. They’re lacking with communication however, but i have faith. Everything will be okay. I’m a big believer. God will always provide especially when your walking in God’s favor. He blesses me so much. Don’t get me wrong everything isn’t easy but God is on my side and I am walking in the light!
"This is my command - be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the Lord your God is with you wherever you go." (Joshua 1:9) NLT The life I dream and long for is simple. Keep it simple stupid. 1. Security 2. Education 3. A condo in southern California after I graduate from school. 4. Meeting my husband in Boston and traveling across country again. The first time I drove from Boston to California was such a beautiful experience. Climbing the Rocky Mountains, hiking at the Great Smoky Mountains in Tennessee, and camping in Kansas. I treasure these memories and would love to do it again. Only this time with my husband. God said it's not good for man to be alone so I believe when the time is right he will come into my life and not worry about my past. If there is one thing I can say about myself now is I have somewhat mastered worrying. Jesus says it doesn't add one hour to your life so I just don't do it. I know everything will be okay cause I've already gone through the worst. I don't think it gets any lower than being homeless. But I'm a fighter and as soon as my eyes were opened I quickly went into a dual diagnosis program that targets substance abuse and mental health. And now 5 months and 2 days later I am clean. Living in a beautiful home in Peabody, Massachusetts temporarily till I move to a one bedroom in Somerville. I appreciate having Brian around but at some point we are going to go our separate ways and I hope we remain good friends. Through the grace of God he has helped me by letting me stay here with him and I'll forever be grateful. I also dream of driving an all white Range Rover. Just simple things. The past year I have become so humble it is unbelievable. Living a year of having nothing but the clothes on your back has made me realize material things are just that material things. All I need are the necessities out of life. 1. Security 2. Education 3. Transportation and most importantly 4. my superman. I long till the day we meet. So until that day comes I'll hold on to my dream last night where I woke up and I was married. How special.